Good Afternoon All
That’s a new one isn’t it. I am sitting at my dining table staring out over the olives to the very rough water. My bride has just checked in and the other suite has the brother-in -law sorting things out. All should be wonderful, however I think I must have done something very bad in a past life.
Wednesday night as I have said, Cameron was not very well but I phoned him from work at 7 on Thursday before I decided to come over here or not. He said he felt better but was going to go to the GP for a check as advised by Mummy (what a good boy). My first hurdle was the car ferry, I have never driven myself on it before but as I don’t have anyone else to do it for me I had no choice. How hard can it be I thought, men do it all the time. I got there early to be at the front of the line and thought all was good but then they told me that I had to back on in front of the 25 other drivers waiting to get on. This was not multi-choice so I just did it. Another tick, the first time is always the hardest in anything in life. I sat in the car and read going over, then off, coffee from Metros pick of the best on the Island and off to the hill to unload. Funny thing, yesterday was 26 weeks, half a year, since Mike left us. I had planned to do a final blog and start a new one and be thankful for what I have learnt in the last 26 weeks but at that moment it all turned to custard. Never mind. Anyway I started messing around doing my floral arrangements and generally getting things ready when my phone went and it was the GP telling me they were sending Cameron to hospital as one eye had dilated and was droopy. I had noticed it but didn’t think too much of it. Anyway he told me not to panic as it was more than likely nothing. He also had seen Mike and so passed on his condolences. That was the end of my preparations, I was on the next ferry home. I know I am and probably always will be an overprotective mother but when your family of 5 has been halved you cling to the 2 that are near you with everything you’ve got. And Bronwynn is in Spain so I had her worry as well.
Cameron was in assessing with every other man and his dog. It was truly a very bad time to be there, the hospital is on Red alert so they were turning ambulances away. Cam’s room was bursting and not one jot of privacy. We shared with the poor man next door having his prostrate checked. The poor old dear the other side felt it was time for her to go as she felt she was a nuisance to her son and opposite lay a very sick Indian lady and I kid you not, every dairy last night must have shut early so the owners could crowd into our room, it was truly ridiculous. Anyway after me regularly complaining, Cameron got his CT scan after only 6 hours. It was OK although they said they should have done a contrast, but he was in for the night on an IV. I came home about 10, answered a few texts , wished Lucy a happy 11th birthday and then fell fast asleep. I was torn but at 4 this morning he told me he felt fine so I came back to check my people in, sadly my heart isn’t in it as it should be today. He has just been to have an MRI just as a final check as he still doesn’t look as he should although nothing sinister has shown up thank God.
I have made muslei here and want to make lemon and lime curd but my scales and pots are at the bach and I don’t feel right going just yet as my Saturday bride is nervous and on her own so I will just wait a bit.
I feels funny. I am excited and scared. Happy and disappointed. I had nothing to do at 11 o’clock and panic came over me, everything was primpt and preened. I couldn’t just sit and although I would have liked to answer the call of the vegetables , it was too windy so instead of just relaxing I went and sorted out my office wreck. Hopefully, with time, and maybe when I am not on edge, I will be able to sit and enjoy the serenity.
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I will keep you updated and please keep your fingers crossed that it is nothing and he comes home today.
love from across the water
Tracey
Hi Tracey
Bloody hell – it never rains but it pours.
The assessment department at the hospital really sucks and you do have to speak up, otherwise you get forgotten about.
I reckon those men on the ferry are like the ones at the WOF centres – they see a female and are tempted to put up an obstacle course for us, because they know we can do it!
Go get the scale and the pots – you won’t be gone long and that way you can keep busy.
Cameron is going to get better, the bride will be married tomorrow and the lemon curd will be made – for sure.
Whenever anyone mentions the word “serenity” it takes me back to that movie “The Castle” – Lavender Hill definitely has authentic serenity, one of the most beautiful places I have ever been to…..but that word just always makes me giggle.
Sending you lots of positive thoughts and energy – read the words on the apron and back yourself.
Lots of love Pam XX
Yes Tracey, its moments like driving the car onto the ferry that you must feel what you took for granted where Hubby would drive the car or wagon onto the ferry, its now girls doing it for themselves or so the song goes!! Music was never my strong point. Hang in there and we will pray that Cameron is OK.
The van Kampens’
Hi Tracey
We’re sending lots of love back across the water to you in waiheke. Our fingers are crossed for Cameron – what awful timing. We hope you have a good sleep and that you do get to enjoy this big first weekend.
Our love and thoughts.
Steve and Kate
Hi Tracey,
I, also, have just caught up on all the blogs. Never seem to have time during the week.
I am sure that Cam will be fine, just believe!.
I agree, get the scales, pots, etc from the batch and get busy, girl! No time to sit around idly.
You said you were going to end the blog and start again
……….. Maybe hear Monique and change the name, how about Tracey’ big adventure at Lavender Hill.
Take care and try and enjoy your weekend.
Love Linda
Hi Tracey
Cameron will be fine and don’t worry about feeling concerned about the kids irrespective of their age, it is a Mother’s perogative. My mother still worries about us, even at our age. Best wishes and love to Cam.
Just remember Tracey, us girls CAN DO anything the blokes can do – we just have to set our mind to it but we do things our way – Remember you are a DUNN/BAKKER – you can do anything.
Hospitals can be notorious for letting in the extended clan and more so. It’s PC gone too far – they don’t want to offend anyone. Bugger the patient!!!!
Enjoy your wedding today and the rest of the weekend. Cam will be fine but and prayers are with you all.
Love and best wishes to you.
Brendaxxxx